I am tired of being powerless
bending my heart
and my will
to what YOU want, and to what I thought I wanted too

I am tired of feeling insignificant
when I used to feel so special to you
When now, I am not
special enough

I am tired of never being able to let you go
yet you could do it in a heartbeat
even though
you say it hurts you so...

It may hurt you
and I pray to God that it breaks you
Because it broke me
but I'm going to be okay, I know I will.

Of course at times...
I feel weak.
I want to fall back in your arms...
and I'd know that you would catch me...

but only for so long would you hold me there

I was never able to allow myself to let you go
I was only able to allow you to let me go
time and time again.
you say its a cycle...I think its hell all over again

You want me to be strong
well here I am
you want me to forget?
No way in hell.

Because if I forgot...
then I wouldn't know what love was
and I wouldn't be who i am today
Thank you

Truthfully though...
You are everything I need. and want.
Everything I hold close to my heart,
Because I love you...I LOVE YOU.

but apparently...
It isn't enough

I want to scream at you...
to take me back
and hold me tight....
but that won't happen...not tonight...

Maybe you're right.
Maybe we will come back together again
But honestly
I dont know how we could

I hurt you
You hurt me.
somehow....
thats all its ever going to be